Picking Up The Pieces

One day after a horrific break up my friend said to me, “Sometimes, God has to do things in a drastic manner because he knows if he does otherwise, we’ll go back. You have to look at this as a blessing because you know that is not the man God has for you.” Although I didn’t want to hear it, I knew she couldn’t be more correct. That statement right there helped me get over my most traumatic break up to date.
As a Christian, I would like to say that God is always in complete control of my life, I always allow him to order my steps, and I pray to him for direction before I make any decision. Unfortunately this is not the truth. The truth is, I pray to God for direction in most areas but often time when it comes to men, I pray to God after I’ve already made my decision. I don’t generally consult him on who to date, I start praying for his blessing while I’m dating.
Doesn’t sound that bad does it? Sometimes when choosing who to date I don’t even consult my spirit man because I’m so led by the flesh. There are times when the Holy Spirit has told me not to date someone but I chose to ignore it. But God is merciful right? So even though I chose to be with someone he distinctively told me not to be with, I prayed for his blessings. I’m ashamed to say that I was bold enough to not only pray for his blessings, but to expect them. Because I love God and he loves me and he said I can ask what I want of him; doesn’t matter if he’s told me that it’s wrong. I asked so he has to give right??
The thing about God though is he allows us to make our own decisions. He’s always there waiting on us to make the right decision, but he won’t force it. The more we reject God’s voice, the stronger the enemies hold becomes on us. Often times we can’t see God until we’re broken; unfortunately, the stronger the hold, the harder the break. Luckily for us, God loves us and he’s there to pick up the pieces and make us whole again.